Blech!

During a very enthusiastic story, my boyfriend spit a tonsil stone directly into my eyeball...from 4 feet away.

Let me go vomit now.

Darkness

I am not happy unless it is raining, God Damnit! I came to the conclusion that I really do love the rain because every time an inch of blue would emerge from the dark sky, I would become a little bit anxious and hold my breath until the blue was covered once again by the clouds. I used all of the forces in my mind to get that cloud to erase that damned colored patch, and once it finally did I could let out a sigh of relief.

On Saturday when it started becoming sunny, I felt very panicked and nervous. I am not sure why this happened, but I think it's because more than anything, I LOVE staying in my pjs in bed, watching movies, and eating junk. When it is raining, you have every excuse to stay inside. When it's sunny, if you stay in bed all day, you are labeled as lazy or boring. Well, I wanted to be lazy and boring and I was horrified at the thought of actually doing something! Sometimes, I strive to do absolutely nothing, and this weekend was the perfect opporuntity until the sunshine tried ruining my dark plan!

Even today at work, I became pissed off the second the sun came out. Rain gives me a sense of comfort and coziness. Sunshine makes me feel like I should be out hiking or flying kites or something. F that. I am just not that kind of girl. I am the kind of girl that just wants to lounge!

Once

The video above is the trailer for the independent film, ONCE, and the music in the background is my favorite song from the film. The part where they sing this song made me cry a little, haha :) Helya introduced me to it last night and the first thing I did when I got back was buy the movie and the soundtrack. You should go rent it, NOW! It is truly "brilliant" Enjoy!!

Ego

I forgot what it was like to be so annoyed by the rain....until today when I had to walk across campus to class in a blustering storm. Since I graduated, I've learned to love the rain - I even rain dance in the cottage, yearning for thunder and lightning - anything to give me an excuse to stay inside and cuddle. Now, I spend two cold mornings a week, vulnerable to the skies above, begging, PLEASE DON'T RAIN!

Other than the weather ruining my new Cal Poly experience, school is proving to be a huge blow to my ego. The professor gave us an in-class problem to work on with our peers. After reading (blankly staring) at the question for about 1 minute, the professor asked who had an answer. He didn't actually think that someone could come up with an answer in that short period of time, did he? Oh, yes he did! Nearly everyone besides me, had an answer. Ok, ok, so I'm a little slow!! My theory is that the rest of the *kids* have been in school for about three years non-stop, with 4 classes at a time, so one little problem doesn't hinder them. On the other hand, I have been out of school for two years. TWO YEARS of absolutely NO brain activity (I'm not even kidding)! So, this is why one should never go back to school after a two-year hiatus. Maybe school is a good thing - it keeps the mind young, right?? Well, it's making me feel like a complete idiot. Moral of the story: I'd rather be old and successful than young and stupid.

2007 Heaven

2007 was one of the best years I've had in a long time. It was the first year that I finally started feeling like a "grown-up". Thank you to everyone for coming to visit and making my life a little more interesting! Xoxo

January

• Celebrated New Years at a fancy hotel party in San Diego, and another night at the Top of the Hyatt.

• Joanna came to visit and we went wine tasting all over SLO and Paso Robles.

• Spent a week in Honolulu, Hawaii for Heather's 23rd birthday. True Paradise with a true friend.

• Ended a 1.5 year relationship with Tim.

• Tucked my broken heart into bed and cried and cried.

February

• Asked Stephen out for a drink (via email) - the greatest move I've ever made

• Spent a non-traditional Valentines day with Mark and Dobber at Marti's. (haven't been there since!)

• Stephen said he thought about me when he saw avocados on sale at Food-4-Less - he put one in my mailbox at work.

March

• Girls weekend getaway in VEGAS! Ate lots of crap, made boys fall in love, and wore the most uncomfortable and gorgeous shoes of all time. Vegas Cheetahs!

• Watched 200 episodes of LOST with Stephen. Lots of nervous laughter, awkward kissies, and butterflies.

• Long Beach vacation to see my Helya. Experienced Roscoe's fried chicken for the first time!!

• St. Patti's day in Santa Barbara with Katie

• Going "steady"

April

• Walked 9 miles in the Big Sur Marathon with my Aunt Cathy.

• Had a baby animal party at the cottage with Surprise visit from Helya and a rickshaw ride home!

• Celebrated Easter with "Ducky" at the Elfin Forest.

• Interviewed and hired into a new position at work (S's idea!!) - more cash, private office, no lab work, much better!

May

• My mom, brother, and grandpa came to visit for the weekend. I think we'll make it an annual tradition!

• Drove to Tahoe to celebrate my Step-mom's 50th birthday.

• Weekend getaway with Stephen to celebrate my new career! We drove up highway 1, stayed the night in San Simeon and Monterey. We watched Kareoke, fed candy to the squirrels and birds, and had a lovely Cinco de Mayo at a mexican restaurant next to the ocean in Monterey.

June

• Drove to Mission Viejo to visit Joanna and meet all of her southern friends.

• Took Amtrak up to Palo Alto to meet up with Stephen after his week long class for work. We went swimming, out to dinner, and Pizza-my-heart!

July

• Spent the 4th of July on a blanket at a quiet park, snuggled up next to my prince. No fireworks this year, but I felt sparks.

• Helya came to visit! We went wine tasting, concert in the plaza, happy hour, pedicures. It was just what I needed!

• Quaint dinner party with Rachel and Scott!

• Motorbike rides to Avila Barn! (Goaty goat goat!)

• My family left Vacaville and moved to Bozeman, Montana. Weird!

August

• Stephen and I went to Chicago for the Lollapolooza music festival. Best. Vacation. Ever. Perfect hotel location, most amazing pizza of all time, beautiful city-scape, nice and happy people, late-nite bars, Walgreens, the "L", sangria, more pizza, a surprise necklace!! Let's not forget the music! Words can't express how wonderful this vacation was.

• Flew to Hawaii for a class for work. I stayed withe Heather and Ryan and managed to enjoy the Hawaiian beaches and warm water.

• Celebrated Stephen's 34th birthday. I ordered him a pizza pie from Chicago! Yes, STRAIGHT from Chicago (shipped on the belly of a plane).

September

• I flew to Bozeman, Montana to visit the fam for Labor Day weekend. It was such a cool town, with lots of character and plenty to see and do. We drove to Yellowstone National park in an hour, and my mom and I hiked up a mountain until we could no longer walk.

October

• Camping in Big Sur with my mountain man! I finally got to use the tent my dad got me for graduation. Unfortunately there were no camp-fires allowed, so we cooked dinner by flashlight, and went to bed early. We followed a bobcat on the trail to the beach, and spent a whole hour staring into the ocean. Oh, romance!

• I finally joined a gym! Not only was it time to start preventing my skin from getting flabby, but I needed a hobby! Kennedy offers dance and fun aerobics classes. It's money well spent.

• Made a spontaneous drive to Anaheim to see Blonde Redhead (Steve's favorite band) at the House of Blues. It was a glorious show!

• Annual Halloreunion with Cub, Pup, and Roo. We carved pumpkins, went out for drinks, and ate yummy pumpkin cake. I love baby animal parties!

November

• Work trip to LA. First time I ever stayed in a hotel by myself. For a week! GOSH I'm brave! Went to Hollywood with my friend Chris and experienced a little bit of rich and famous lifestyle....and I must say...love it but cannot live it! Helya came to visit one night too. Lucky me!

• Thanksgiving was spent housesitting for my ex-bosses mansion and 4 doggies. I cooked a miniature Thanksgiving dinner for S and I. We were living large for four days.

• So You Think You Can Dance show with Rachel in San Jose. The Cubden was very warm and welcoming - thanks for the best spagetti dinner EVER! and fun drunkenness at the pub. Woot!

December

• I turned 25! Steve took me out to Dorn's in Morro Bay for a romantic dinner. I felt so special! I finally feel like an adult. I'm starting to get this whole "real world" thing. I have a reliable car, a cute cottage, a dreamy boyfriend, an incredible career, no financial problems, and the best family and friends a girl could ever ask for. I realize I am very lucky, and I owe it to good karma or something...thanks to whoever/whatever is making my life go the way it is going..(knock on wood).

• 10 days off work for the Holidays! Steve and I went on a road trip all over Northern California and into Nevada. We stayed with his parents in Mountain Ranch for three nights, and I met all of his family! They were incredibly sweet and made me feel very welcome and loved. We also went to visit my dad and brother in Gardnerville. Steve got to see where I grew up and met more of my family for the first time. Then we drove to Danville to see my mom and aunt and her family. My cousins, Charisma and Serene, are the most well behaved, lovable, little ma'ams I have ever met. These girls make me want to have babies NOW.

• New years Eve was very wild and crazy - not the typical Steve-and-Jaime kind of night. I did get a smooch at midnight, and for the first time ever, I knew that kiss meant forever.

Guest Blogger

A Poem by an anonymous guest blogger:



My heart can not chose between two
The one who has my heart or the one it belongs to
Continue with what I have while craving the touch of another
Or throw it all away for something previously broken it two
Can one forget and start off with something new

Maybe the future will mend the past
Maybe my heart will be complete at last
Maybe my tears will dry up fast
Only time will make the choice

What if time leaves me all alone
Makes me survive on my own
Punishes me for the path I took
Leaves my heart like a broken bone
And only brings me sorrows and moans

How do I make the right choice
How do I state it with my voice
How do I know this time it will be right
And we won’t have to worry about any more fights

I don’t want to break another heart
But maybe it is time for us to part
I should be on my own and now might be the time to start
I’m crazy
I’m not brave enough

Bling Bling

So, Steve surprised me this Christmas, and gave me a shiny, gold ring! It's dainty and delicate and PERFECT! He even guessed at the right size and it fits perfectly. No, it's not an engagement ring if that's what you're thinking...it's just a lovey ring. He had me open up a few other presents like a toothbrush, sea monkeys (yes, LIVE sea monkeys!!), and a pizza cutter (hoody!), and then TA DA! out pops a cute red box with a yummy little bow. My new favorite thing! :)

I LOVE SJD.