Darkness

I am not happy unless it is raining, God Damnit! I came to the conclusion that I really do love the rain because every time an inch of blue would emerge from the dark sky, I would become a little bit anxious and hold my breath until the blue was covered once again by the clouds. I used all of the forces in my mind to get that cloud to erase that damned colored patch, and once it finally did I could let out a sigh of relief.

On Saturday when it started becoming sunny, I felt very panicked and nervous. I am not sure why this happened, but I think it's because more than anything, I LOVE staying in my pjs in bed, watching movies, and eating junk. When it is raining, you have every excuse to stay inside. When it's sunny, if you stay in bed all day, you are labeled as lazy or boring. Well, I wanted to be lazy and boring and I was horrified at the thought of actually doing something! Sometimes, I strive to do absolutely nothing, and this weekend was the perfect opporuntity until the sunshine tried ruining my dark plan!

Even today at work, I became pissed off the second the sun came out. Rain gives me a sense of comfort and coziness. Sunshine makes me feel like I should be out hiking or flying kites or something. F that. I am just not that kind of girl. I am the kind of girl that just wants to lounge!